Friday, October 17, 2008

Understanding....

I have been trying to understand something for sometime now. And I finally got the understanding that I needed. I have had a friend who has been fighting with Breast Cancer. She is actually my ex sister in law. She was intending on getting a divorce from my ex brother in law and I have always been there to try to support any decision she made whether it was to stay or go. Well she recently decided to get back with him and that was good for her they have three kids and needed to try to make it work. I still continued to support her but she drifted away. I can understand why, I mean her husband dislikes me which is fine and well that whole family dislikes me which is okay I still pray for them and hope all them the best! But you know after all I have done for her and been there with her for it just surprised me that she couldn't make a friendship work. So she sent me a text message today and well I confronted her and basically said that how can we be friends when you are in a family of people who hate me how can we co exist. Her reply was "idk" Which means I don't know. So I simply stated then I guess we have our answer I told her I pray the best for her and her whole family and that God continues to bless them all and they reply I got was you too.... So to me that confirmed more then ever that she doesn't and hasn't cared. She has just used me! And well I wasn't sad, I didn't get upset. I knew it all along and just didn't want to face it. I don't have many friends so I try to keep the ones I have but somewhere along the line of getting used I stopped caring... Jon has always been so worried that when this friendship ended it would end on bad terms and I would be the one left feeling horrible. But in all actuality I gave it my all I still extended my hand of friendship and it continued to get slapped away. Things happen and I actually feel better now then I ever have about all of this....

But on a happier note today is Friday! wooohoooo! And Jon and I have Austin this weekend! We are hopping to have a great time with him just enjoying time together as a family!

Is it 4 yet????

1 comment:

haley shumway said...

You are a great friend Jhenna! God used you in her life and probably will continue to as she thinks back on things. Sometimes we are used because the other person has nothing to give. That is when we know we are so blessed because we have God to fill that need. : ) I kind have been thinking the same thing about one of my old friends lately and have come to kind of the same conclusion. By the way I need your number again I lost it again. Mine is 455-8854 or cell 564-4414. Lets do something!!