I lost myself somewhere along the way....

So I tried the whole blogging by phone thing today and well it bombed majorly! So here I go...

I lost myself 5 months ago...

I lost who I was and what I wanted in life. I felt like I was a completely different person! I am getting better now. Not 100% yet but better. I don't really know what happened to me. I think I became depressed with my life and what it had become. I started to feel sorry for myself instead of proactively trying to change it. I let so many things drag me down and before long I was no longer me.... I was only a shell of my former self... I don't know if any of this is making sense... But my point is I have had a difficult 5 months....

I have lost my job of 6 years... I have a new job now (Praise God) It doesn't pay nearly as well as my last job but it's a job... After losing my job I realized that I haven't doen anything with my life... I felt like a failure in so many ways... My eyes have been opened to the things and people around me and I have finally decided to take the plunge and apply to college's in my area. For the longest time I have wanted to major in business and now I have found my true calling! I want to be an Elementary School teacher... I want to help mold the young minds of our future! I am very excited about this new challenge I have put before myself and if it is God's will I know I will accomplish it! So I will attend school for my degree in elementary education with a minor in art... So now all I have to do is actually apply to these schools... This scares me to death but I feel it's time to step outside my comfort zone and more on to bigger and better things. And well I don't have it all figured out I have but a small part one step in the right dirrection.... And honestly as long as I have God in my life I can only go up. I just need to keep my focus on him and know that if I do then nothing is unattainable!! So here's to a new better verison of me... One molded by God's love and never ending grace....